YUYU

lol! I SUCK AT DOING REAL PEOPLE BUT I DONT CARE! ITS FUUUN~!

Hayden cullen

Meet Hayden... He used to be my vision of Edward... till Rob Pattinson came round the corner =_= Ish... Why the scar? its sexy~ XD

-i do not own hayden-
Hiritai does

Alex Mckee is...

-Wallpaper by me-
-photos from dA-

What happened?

What happened? To the old days? Where we would just 'hang out'? yes. you've guessed it... ANOTHER rant post... First off... i would like to ask people i know... Are you guys okay? Second of... I would like to say, i hope you are. Cause it seems like... everyone i used to know... are gone. No more just having fun... No more talking about crap... No more anything... *sigh* As much as i would want to change that... i cant... The days when Jessie, Seetha, Hui Min and I would just... Talk crap while attacking her sammiches... The Jack Sparrow-ing down hills... The Four-Way msn chats... GONE.... Jessie's in China. Seetha's being converted in Balik Pulau. And Hui Min and I are stuck here. And btw, i saw 2 dudes making out in front of the Tunkul Abdul Rahman Complex just now... 2 MALAY guys XD LOL! Not a homophobe... just a *coughmalay-a-phobecough* so anyway... Yea... And the competitions... are really killing me... Being President of 3 societies... Good for my future... TIRING for my now... I just wish for a freaking time-machine and a "STOP-IN-TIME" button y'know?

~edit~
Ah yes. just remembered... life... after PMR was good... Everyday, Lee Sa, Li Thyn, Theresa, Saras, Hooi Ping and I would skip useless school activities and Hang out at the colistrian garden (cause they were ping pong-ing) and the days of "the price of freedom" were good too... Shu Wern, Farha and myself also spent some time together and that was fun... So... this brings me back to the good old days... And i am very thankful for that too!

sorry about my ranting again...

With all my grief,
-susian

LAlalalaLALALA!

I like girls. and they like me. you spin my head right round right round. When you go down, when you go down down. How could you be so heartless? So keep your love locked down.

current obsessions of songs... bear with my retardation...

Earth Hour

MARCH 28, 2009

8.30 PM - 9.30 PM

Schimmel....

I think i might actually really be in love this time... Everytime i close my eyes... I see Schimmel... I dont care that were from two different worlds... I love Schimmel.... one day, I shall have Schimmel in my home... and we shall make beautifull music together....












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LITERALLY XDD







Schimmel.... one day... i WILL OWN YOU XD LOL XD GAH!!! SAUTER!!! FAZIOLI!!! NO SPACE!!! XDD i shall... MAKE space!!

Sorry lo

Lol... Fyi... you're NOT my employer... And sending little hate messages... yea... WAAAAY more mature... you'll SOOO get promoted for that... And you know what... everyone LOVES you... i'm sorry... I'm just an arse without a life boo hoo *cries*







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And now i'm over it. NYAH.












And one more thing. I wont talk to Michelle anymore kay? Not cause I have a grudge or anything... quite the opposite actually... Just to make a good friend like you happy 8D see? I'm SO EFFING NICE ._.

Please. Just. Let me do this...

I know how i'm loosing weight isnt healthy... puking and not eating and exercising loads... not good... i know... I of all people know that... but its just something i HAVE to do... so please... just drop it... And to those who think "oh... shes still fat anyway...". BULLSHIT... you think i dont know that? I'm trying my best okay? so please, just drop it...

To Claire:

I hate you. Actually, hate is such a strong word... I just really really dont like you... I know you hate me cause you THINK i'm "controling" michelle... but C'MON... why would i want to go out of my way to do something to someone like YOU of all people... please.... dont flatter yourself... I did NOTHING but tell her the truth... and if YOU cant accept that... eff. off. I.DID. NOTHING. and that "anti-Claire campaign"? I WASNT THE ONLY PARTICIPANT. Sure. i hated you.. by golly... i still do... but C'mon! I'm not the only one kay? Get a clue! BACK TO REALITY PLEASE? MICHELLE DOESNT LIKE YOU. Shes your friend out of PITY okay? And i'm probably being the closest to a real friend to you by telling you all of this!

Worries O_O

Omg... I just got back from Jam and balance X_X damn fun... but now... dilemma time... My studies... are killing me! I think I’ve finished some stuff but there’s this THING in me that’s saying "that’s not the best you can do and you KNOW it!" So right now... I blog to release stress... And the horrid thought of the future is brooding over my shoulder again... mind my grammar... it tends to go south when I’m scared... so it's not a surprise hearing me talk utter rubbish in the dark, before and exam, sometimes before jam... and now. Good Grief! And the one thing that’s always had my back... the ONE thing that I was SURE I would always do well in... Is giving me hell... ENGLISH. I'm so worried right now... And Add Math... sure I can solve the questions... but the thing is... Will I have enough TIME to do so? I'm not really a mathematician... So I can’t calculate the square root of 529 in a split second... which, by the way, is 23... And chemistry... Good lord... don’t even get me started... PC LIM helps... but I can’t finish his homework in time for his lessons because I have to study for school!! And I’m sorry Mr. Saiful, you're really nice and all... but... O_O... And physics... holy cow dung on a stick... it’s so... TIME CONSUMING solving the questions... And unfortunately... Time... is something I don’t have T^T Gosh... I think this is the longest post I’ve written in a LOOOONG time... JAM... I honestly LOVE jam... but Going 6 times a week... is really taking its toll on me... I HAVE time to study... I just don’t have the MOOD to study... like... right now for instance... D8 and mother dearest is giving me hell about the way I eat again... apparently... according to her, I "don’t eat enough"... WTHECK??? Does she WANT me to have a relapse? I know I dont == *sigh* So now... back to reality... Tests are in 3 days and i have 8 subjects to cover... Yay me ._. I guess i better get started then...

-end of post-

As named by Saras

ANNOUNCEMENT!

My Fish have officially been named by Saras... The orange one is F1, The slightly less orange one is F2, The slightly more than less orange one is F3, The Orange but slightly redish yellow is F4, And the last one is... THE FIFTH F 8D

-That is all-

I wrote a love story

Aww... *wipes tear*... That gets to me every time <='D

Tagged by Shu Wern, K.

Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 5 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post.
Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. Crazy stuff u did before.
Puked after every meal for 2 days (it was a 'phase'...)

2. What is your most favourite thing to do ?
JAM! XD

3. If you are given a chance to reverse your life, will you go back to the past ?
Isn't it obvious? HELL YEA DD<

4. Have you ever been betrayed?
Yup... plenty... but who cares? 8D

5. Is there someone in your heart right now ?
Yea... Arteries? Like.... Arteries... and maybe... NAH... JUST THOSE XD *ops... after reading it over... i just read "someone" XDD I thought it said something! XDD nvm! I'm too lazy to go there anyway ==*

6. Do you feel loved in this world ?
Yup~! =]

7. What are you afraid to lose?
Everything T^T

8. What do you feel like doing right now ?
Nothing... I just wanna LAZE AROUND AND GO JAM D<

9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her ?
I would TRY? but it really depends actually...

10.Do you think you are special?
Sometimes??

11. What are the requirements that you wish not from your other half?
Dishonesty? Superficial-ness? MATERIALISM!!!

12. What do you think is your purpose in life?
I dont know... TO JAM??? TO LIVE??? I KNOW!!! REPRODUCE!!!! ?????

13. Do you feel like killing someone at the moment?
No. I dont think myself counts... ==

14. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Honestly.... I have NO IDEA... cause right now... its like... nothing??? *people who know me know what i'm talking about right? XD*

15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
I want both... But if i HAD to choose, it would be happiness...

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
The bad parts... well... that makes every part i guess XD

17. If you were given a chance to brain-wash yourself, which part of your memory would you like to erase?
If i erase things, more bad things would just take its place right? So I shall do what all nerds do... CTRL + Z

18. Name one love song that you have in mind and why?
Love story by Rain... CAUSE I LOVE IT XD

19. What is your plan when you become an old man or old woman?
To retire and spend the rest of my life happily(?) with someone?? XD OR JAM!!! XDD

20. If there were 5 things you could ban, what would they be?
1) Love at first sight ==
2) HOMEWORK
3) Judgmental people
4) Tests!
5) PAIN *my muscles ache! T^T*

Tagged:
Hui Min
Jessie
Yuna
Kyla
Lee Sa *GET A BLOG!! D<*

JAM 48!

Today... started out crappy... i felt so sick... i was honestly freaking out if i would be able to make the launch today... and you know what? I WENT ANYWAY!!! after PC LIM... HE WAS HILARIOUS MARN!! REAL SITUATION:
*PC Lim Spots a student and starts chasing him*
~RUN RUN RUN~
-Head master pops up outta nowhere-
H.M: "PENG CHEW! Apa kamu buat????"
PC Lim: "kejar pelajar" *points at student thats running away at top speed*
H.M: "........ Ok. Sila teruskan"

.....

LOL!!!!


so as i was saying... JAM 48 WAS AWESOME!!! It was like so HIGH.... and they all... MATCHED XDDD LOLL!!! It was awesome seriously... Just want to say : THANK YOU ALAN, CHRIS, CHING EE, TERRENCE, PAULINE AND SHAWN~! YOU GUYS WERE AWESOME! OMG... I'm so effing high... i wanna do 48 again NOW!!!! T^T I DONT CARE!!! I'M GOING FOR CHRIS'S TUESDAY MORNING CLASS AND THERES NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO STOP ME!!!! >DD

TERRENCE CHRIS CHING EE ALAN

The instructors! D8 Without Shawn O_O



LOL! WTHECK? XDD



And finally....






Wait for it.....





THE......





SEXY MEN!!!










WHUUUUT?!?!?!




















LOL! NOSEBLEED OR WHAT?!?? XDD

Rain- Love story

Hey this is my story
is job OK listen

Oh baby 너에게 하고 싶었던 그말
나의 맘 속 안에서 나를 슬프게한 그 말
우리 사랑했지만 갈 수 없었던 그 이율
바보같이 아무말도 전할 수 없었네

한 번만 더 기회를 줘 나는 몰랐었어
너의 마음이 변한건지 아직 늦진 않았잖아
빌었지만 차갑게 돌아선 네 모습

이 노래는 진실했던 사랑 이야기
모든 걸 다 바쳤던 나의 이야기
하지만 이제 끝을 모두 맺허버린
지나간 나의 사랑이야

I Love You 아직도 사랑해
솔직한 나의 맘 소리
모든 걸 다 바칠 수 있는 다짐을
말하고 있는거야
내게 돌아와줘 영원히 기다릴게 널
I Love You 아직도 사랑해

Oh 사랑했잖아 너는 잊을 수 있니
추억 속의 사랑 너는 나를 떠났지만
나와 했던 약속은 아무것도 아닌건지
너는 웃으면서 나의 얘길하더라

죽을 것 같이 난 아파 Oh No
단지 단 한 번만 너와 함께 할 수만 있다면
난 숨을 쉴 수가 없어 ye ye
나의 모든 것들이 너를 원하잖아

이 노래는 진실했던 사랑이야기
모든 걸 다 바쳤던 나의 이야기
하지만 이젠 끝을 모두 맺어버린
지나간 나의 사랑이야기
I Love You 아직도 사랑해

솔직한 나의 맘 소리
모든 걸 다 비칠 수 있는 다짐을
말하고 있는거야
내게 돌아와줘 영원히 기다릴게 널
I Love You 아직도 사랑해

나도 잊는다 추억 지우며
내 맘이 곪아서 더 이상은 못하겠어
아프겠지만 끊어버릴거야
너와의 가슴 속 모든 인연들을
한가지만 기억해

너의 모든걸 다 안아줄 수 있었던
남자 나였단 걸
이젠 너 없이도 뭐든 해낼거고
지금 이 노래를 들어

이 노래는 널 향한 사랑이야기
모든 걸 다 바쳤던 나의 순정이
후회되진 앉아 널 이제 잊을거야
지나간 나의 사랑아
I Love You 아직도 사랑해

마지막 널 향한 목소리
모든걸 다 알고있는
나의 외침이 들린다면
내곁에 다시 돌아와줘
영원히 너를 사랑해 I Love You
너만을 사랑해

Baby please come back to me
miss you baby

Its. So. Freaking. Sad. And. Nice. Damn. You. Girl. In. The. M.V.

sigh~

omg... The test... is in a week... And how much studying have i done?? NONE... NOTHING... NADA.... ZELCH..... DIE.... History... I have NO IDEA what the question format is in... Moral... i cant answer to save my shit... and Add math... Pn Tan is freaking us out... and and and oh good greif... I gotta study... BUT BODYJAM 48!!!!!!!!!!! I CANT NOT GOOOO~ its... a NECECITY!!! O_O GAAAAAHHHHHH.... And i'm begining to worry again T^T Thats... not good T^T ISH! *runs arround in circles* I NEED MY FIX!!! *jogs to piano*

Ranting moment

Okay... so today the SPM results came out... and CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL!!!! Especially..... JASMINE CHAN 8DDDDD We had to distribute the magazines... AGAIN T^T They're so freaking heavy O_O I finally got my contacts today =D And crap... i feel like... a CULLEN D8 *horrific realization* it feels... EMPOWERING actually... and JAM.... dont even get me started... Not only did Terence do SOME of my faves... HE DID ALL OF THEM XDDD So now... even thought i skipped lunch and dinner *exept for a green apple and some grapes* I AM SO EFFING HIGH X3 ... ran into Chris in cold storage == and bought my aunt a CUP 8DDD a BIIIIIGGGGG cup XDD And i FINISHED ALL MY HOMEWORK IN SCHOOL *coughsagaincoughs* and now... i have to TRY to study... *sigh*... So sien la.... oh right... and... Alan is super stuborn when it comes to resting O_O And i think i might actually kinda miss Seetha... D8 and... JESHIE T^T *sigh again* everyones leaving DD8 *feels so sad now*

blink

Dont think... i'm gonna be watching... The unborn... and omg the test... 2 weeks D8 NOTHING COVERED XDD

stupid stupid stupid

I shall never bake again... T^T For what i ask? No ones gonna buy anyway... and thanks hui min... for making this

holy crap.... eggs.... so many eggs.... GAAAAHHH~! I WANT TO gO FOR JAM NOWH!!!!! *cries* I got my contacts though... so thats nice 8D and CHEMISTRY KILLED MY BRAAAAIIIIINNNN O________O Oh god... so NOT looking forward to tomorrow... and i didnt see him today T^T

Devastated

birthday....


MY birthday....


Is...




DURING MY MIDTERM!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY??!??!?!? *cries in a corner*



I wanted... to get... a CAKE!! T^T

Rain

RAIN (as in the natural phenomenon, not my Bi) IS EVIL!!! CHRISTINE AND ALAN GOT HURT CAUSE OF THE RAIN!! WHAI RAIN WHAI!??!?!!? T^T *goes to a corner and talks to rain gods*

HAPPY BiRTHDAY LEE SA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE SA! YOU'RE 16!!! SWEET 16!!! XDD You've been
an awesome friend for almost 10 years now!!! LUVS CHU~! HAPPY 16TH!

HERE! HAVE A PS2 BIRTHDAY CAKE!!!

Where i wanna go

I MUST GO TO RAFFLES DESIGN INSTITUTE~! Preferably the on in Singapore but my mother.... Disapproves =_= She says "Anywhere BUT Singapore"... And i'm like... WTH!?!?!? WHY?!??!?! And she's all like... "you bo jin lu eh ma liou ko ai ki ka lu eh kor... bla bla bla" JESUS CHRIST WTBH?!?!? TT_______TT I DONT CARE! I'M GOING!!! And thats final! but if i cant find a decent university in Singapore... then i guess its off the Aussie for me...

Cover judging

Aww man.... judging someone by they're looks T^T Thats meaaaannnnn D8 Not to mention unfair to less good-looking people... like me for instance D8 I mean C'mon, Dont you think its kinda mean to not even get to know that person first? =(