Oh eff it all

I gave you my ALL! for nothing D8 Anyway... Its like... everyone hates my guts now... What did I do? *sigh* oh well... The saying 'love and BE loved' obviously doesnt apply here... I LOVE and be hated... so i shant love anymore... BLEAH... XP

WHAAAAAT?? HUUUUUH???

OMOHOLYCOWOMFGWTFBBQCHICKEN???? How come i dont know anything??? D8 CANNOT BELIEVE LER~! DAMN LA.... 7 months WASTED D8 OMG OMG OMG TT^TT

LMAOLOLOMGWTH?

Random pic... bored... NO INSPIRATION.... i liek mudkips saturating X3

To people who have been so awesome to me

To Hui min: Thanks for tolerating a retard lyk meh~
To Jessie: LOVE YOU MISS YOU!
To Chris: LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU~! MY SUPAJAMMER!
To Alan: XD YOU BE AWESOME! MY AWESOMEATTACKER!
To Terence: *SUPERHUG* MY DIVALICIOUSDIVAVO
To Rooney: LOVES! HUGS! XD MY CUTECOMBATTER! XDD
To Ching Ee: XDD *HUGS*
Oh god.... What would i be doing had i not know you guys???? XD *hugs self* WARM AND FUZZY FEELING~! FULL OF LOVE LOVE LOVE FOR THEM!~!

disgusting

I find it utterly disgusting. There is a subconscious part of my thats telling me that it MIGHT be jealousy, but the conscious part of my just thinks its sick. Why? Cause honestly, I dont get jealous... not THAT easily anyway... And if you wanna keep it discreet, DON'T FLAUNT IT... like... PERIOD... Its quite ridiculous actually if you think about it... and to be quite frank, Its just sick... If i have to console another friend over something so trivial and retarded, I think I might end up killing him/her. Reason simply being that he/she REFUSES to listen, REFUSES to think logically and REFUSES to be what he/she ought to be == Rant? Oh absolutely... But thats why youre here right? XD to read my rants! 我是陈淑婵~! AND I RANT! SO LIVE WITH IT 8DDDD LOL

我的淑女

*phew*

Okay, I have almost fully accepted the fact. I HAVE actually accepted it... I'm just starting to live with it...

Ashes to ashes,
Dust to dust.
Everyone cries,
When they must.

Big temple dogs,
Biting and bickering.
The dimly lit candles,
Constantly flickering.

The smell of incense,
I know it well.
Since that day,
When we bid farewell.

Everything is,
Said and done.
Depressingly knowing,
It was no fun.

Believe me when I say,
There's nothing I would rather.
Other than to have back,
My beloved father.

Recovering

I'm not emo. I just miss my dad. Also, I am trying to accept the fact. So please, bear with my silence for a while. And again, thanks for all your concern, but i'm fine. If you wish to offer prayers, let them be for my late father, not me. Thank you all and i'll be back to normal in a few months. please bear with me till then

Today, about an hour ago, I lost someone very close to me.

He was always proud of me.

He was always supportive.

He would always be there for me.

He was the one who would comfort me.

He rocked me to sleep when i was merely a baby.

He would always tell me I did a good job.

He held my family together.

He backed me up.

He was always on my side.

He was my friend.

He was my family.






He was my father.


Dad, I'm sorry. I loved you. And I always will.

Organised my effed up life

Done @ gym

loser

I am in fact, a loser... I cried when my Bio tutor played a clip of Michael Jackson's Dangerous.... I cried when my friend said he is in a better place... and if i wasnt so tired, i think i would cry now too == And to all the people who only started to like Michael AFTER her died... well, fuck you... Thats right EFF you... He was the greatest performer of all time... HE was the reason for all our concerts being so totally awesome now... NO ONE could move like him... So to you people who never liked him before but are giving him attention now that hes dead, Fuck you. And to the media whose still giving him hell even when hes no longer on this earth, Fuck you too...


To Michael: Where you are now, the media cant hurt you. And for that, I only wish for your happiness... Even if it is in the afterlife.

Envy

http://davenit.deviantart.com

Envy
Definition- as an emotion that "occurs when a person lacks another’s superior quality, achievement, or possession and either desires it or wishes that the other lacked it." It can also derive from a sense of low self-esteem that results from an upward social comparison threatening a person.

So where do I fit into all of this? You have what you want most. Why cant I do what I love most? Down, depressed and deprived. The 3Ds caused by envy. Me? Envious? No. It's not me. I swear. But allow me this. A way to let it out. Why me? I have nothing. Compared to you, who now has what you want. I have NOTHING. I do not possess anything that could make you envious. For whats worth, I should be the one envious of you. I am being deprived. Of what I love doing. Not deprived. REFUSED. I have to vent it out someway. If i don't, God knows how much longer I can take. If you were my friend. If you trusted me. Why envy? I have no intention of crossing the line. I have my own line to cross. I guess I expected too much. Especially when we were not as close as I thought we were. I trusted you. Why could you not do the same? Never in my life, have I felt so disturbed by something. And I listen and tolerate cause I care. And apparently, I don't think you do. So I guess I just wasted my time. Nothing you say now can take back what made me lose all respect towards what you thought was friendship.

~For those who envy, the glass is always half empty. Never half full~

And if I envy, then there will be two empty halves. Leaving a fully empty glass. And for that reason, I will NOT envy. I will NOT sin. There is still a part of me, the naive side, that still trusts you anyway.

The true divavo