World milk day ==

As requested by my brother, I'm wishing you all a HAPPY WORLD MILK DAY! Go drink some milk ==

ICON DEATH

FINALLY. FINISHED. THE ICONS. O_O *points to friends i read* personally... I LOVE how Hui min, Yuna, Krystle, Alan, Chloe and Saras's turned out... Nice pics 8D

FOOTER

HAHA! I HAVE A HEADER AND A FOOTER! 8DDD

Live and let live

note: I miss Shawn D8

eating disorder? I know not the meaning of eating disorder. I eat a lot. And I'm packing on the pounds. Wish they were gone? Yea. If I play my cards right, I will be going for 27 classes in gym this week. Including Step. Why? I HAVE to lose weight. No longer to i want to be "that fat kid with the specs and braces". Materialistic arses. Most people are like that. I wish i wasn't but sadly, i kinda am too. So i have no right to complain about anyone else. Especially being as imperfect and flawed as I am. On the other hand, the tiny flaws in my current obsession are cute and alluring... Its a little unfair how someone can be so... perfect even in his/her imperfections. Annoying? DEFINATELY. And I honestly have to get away from home... staying here is just so boring ==

THE DOOR IS EVERYTHING
ALL THAT ONCE WAS AN ALL THAT WILL BE
THE DOOR CONTROLS TIME AND SPACE, LOVE AND DEATH
THE DOOR CAN SEE INTO YOUR MIND
THE DOOR CAN SEE INTO YOUR SOOOOUUUUL~!

R-really? The door can do all that?


















Heh. NO.

CHARLIE HOW I'VE MISSED YOU

SUPA CHRIS

My very own super jammer! XD ILOVEYOUCHRIS! (and alan,terence,ching ee, shawn, pauline *pictures coming soon*)

Poor Alan T^T

Today, I woke up early to go for body attack... and was kinda very sleep actually... then... I was thinking... "Hey... why arent any of the regulars here?" and apparently... I was the ONLY one there 8D So... Attack, was canceled... Sigh... Poor alan... came for nothing XDD dont worry alan! i shall always go for your attacks! 8DDD

ANGELA 8D

GLASSES

Retarded glasses! 8D

I DREW MEH 8D

First ever thing i've EVER done with the tablet == I was too lazy to scan, so i just drew straight away 8D Looks... ok, right?? XDD AH! MY GLASSES D< I'll add those in!

Bored

I was bored. So this is my new avatar thinggi. Yes. Its plain. Yea. Its me. Yup. The 'Susian face'. Uh huh. Flower petals infesting my face. I like it 8D

Stop it.

Jesus... just freaking stop it okay? Just cause i love something and know it, DOESNT MEAN I CAN TEACH IT OKAY??? JUST TO SAVE YOUR SKIN, I DIE? NO THANKS! And Another thing! You just talk to me when you need me! So EFF OFF LA.... KANASAI

Give it a rest

Exams are over... But... For some odd reason... i'm more bored now... the list of things i wanted to do? All means nothing now that i cant go to gym... Yes. My life revolved around it. Its still does. I miss Jam. I miss Attack. I miss Combat. Balance. Pump. Heck, I'll even miss Step... And if all this missing comes just from the THOUGHT of missing gym... I shudder to think what will become of me after i actually... dont GET to go... D8 *sigh* And on another note, how many times do i have to tell you i dont CARE untill it sinks into your thick, unpenatreble skull??? If i didnt give a shit 3 years ago, what in the world makes you think i would give a damn NOW? Jesus... Just leave me alone == Yes, I'm in a bad mood cause I missed Chris day... CHRIS DAY D8

Tick tock

I thought i couldnt wait to get it over with but now i think i'm regretting it... not because of the fact that its irreversible.... But simply cause... I'M BANNED FROM ThE GYM TILL WEDNESDAY... NEXT NEXT WEEK GAAAAAHHH

Life's brief candle

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day
To the last syllable of recorded time,
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death.
Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot,
full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing






art from: http://jerry8448.deviantart.com

apathetic

I trust Ben. So i shant be scared. On another note. I'm so tired of it all... sometimes, i dont even know why i'm still alive... Or what i'm doing this all for... myself? Please. I'm not worth it... No one is worth going through this crap for. GAH.

yayayaya YAMAMBA

okay, So there i was, thinking about the old days... were i would buy and wear Vkei clothes... *shudder* BUT OMG... I'm so glad i didnt go....








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........

ZHENG~

And If you show this to little children.... the MIGHT recognize it.... as THIS *scroll down*













LOL XD

Gackt~!

Have you EVER seen a man so beautiful?apart from alan
D8 Oh god... He puts all women to SHAME and all men to even MORE SHAME XDD *drooool~*

And on another note, American idol 2009. I dont watch it... But i would just like to say that when I heard these people sing... i was just in awe XDD AND HERE ARE REASONS WHY THEY SHOULD BOTH WIN XD

ADAM

Cause he sings like a GOD and hes epicly cute XD

KRIS

Cause hes a mix of bodyjam instructors LOL
Chris-Kris Alan-Allen LOOOLLL he can sing... but not as well as Adam... I just really wanted to make that joke XDD

GACKT

OH NO NOT AGAIN GAAAAAACKT~! *ECSTASY~~~~!* oh god... I have never loved as hard as i loved Gackt before... XDD But he doesnt... look so good in this vid for some reason... maybe too much make-up/ fake wound goop... ==

I will survive!

I will do it! I dont care anymore! I shall pass my exams! NONO I SHALL ACE THEM ALL!! XD I shall go LIVE in the gym! I shall lose this shizzle you call FLUBB AND I SHALL EFFING TELL HIM XDD okay maybe not the last one... BUT I WILL DO IT! I.CAN. WILL.SURVIVE!

RANT TO BE IGNORED

Life. is being a bitch with a capital B. I cant focus. I think I might actually be in deep trouble this time... And to top it all off... I gained weight... FML... but I'll say... I AM REALLY looking forward to the after-exams... Things to do:
1) Try to get people to watch movies with me
2) LIVE in the gym
3) LOSE WEIGHT GOSH DARNIT
4) Learn to play that retarded Trombone and piano piece I've been putting off for 2 years XD
5) Do all the tags
6) DID I MENTION LOSE WEIGHT??? D8
7) GO OUT A LOT XD
8) GET PEOPLE TO GO OUT WITH ME! *any volunteers? XDD

And thats it... apart from this... I've been noticing that i really cant go through a day without going to gym... That... is not good seeing as i have mid terms in 2 days... And PCLim... hes really good and all but... HOLYMONKEYSNOTONASTICKHASHEEVERHEARDOFLIMITATIONS?!??!?! *breathes* Oh man... I need to widen my social circle... I'm running out of friends and my sociophobia doesnt help that... I mean... I SERIOUSLY freak out when stangers: talk to me, bump into me and stuff like that... Geez... I HAVE been getting over it seeing as everyone at the gym is really nice but still... its a phobia and its stuck at the back of my head... == i HAVE to get rid of it... I honestly... must get more lepak buddies...

Blah

Ah... The cake thats still in the fridge. uncut. name spelt wrongly. Gah.

The only best present i got:

but god damnit... The card that certifies that i'm the owner apparently has the price one it... and honestly... I just wanna get the money back... Its was... FREAKING HELL... RM909.00 WTF?!?!!?

Thank you bodyjam

Ah. yes. I was right... Gym DID make this cibai day a LOT better... Thanks Alan, Chris, Terrence, Rooney, Celia and Jastin! Today SUCKED at first... But thanks everyone at gym 8D

Sweet 16 my ARSE

Today, I turn 16... How does everyone react to that?
Mom: I'll be in Ipoh till tomorrow btw, happy birthday *leaves the house at 6.00 AM*

Conversation with dad:
Me: Can you come home early tonight?
Dad: Sorry, I'm going out to have a few drinks with my friends. Anything important?
Me: ... No nothing... have fun

Dont even get me STARED on school cause it was equally as bad

Everyone else forgot until my brother said "hey! Its susian's birthday~"
Everyone: OH RIGHT HOR?
Me: *goes upstairs and cries in a corner*

So they bought me a cake. No ones gonna be home tonight. So i shall just cut it alone and eat it alone. Doesnt my sweet 16 sound fun so far?

GAH TAG OF DOOM

1.My Name : Tan.Su.Sian

2.My Birthday : 7th May

3.Who tagged you : Hooi Ping and Shu Wern

4.Name 5 best friends : Hui Min, Lee Sa, Jessie, actually... i have tons 8D

5.What do you wished for birthday : I only ever wish of good grades and Weight loss XD

6.Happy things that happened recently : BODYJAM.... thats about it T^T

7.Most stressed about recently : MIDTERMS WHICH I HAVENT STUDIED FOR DDDD8

8.What is your dream about future : THIN! MONEY! FAME! SUCCESS! HAPPINESS!

9.Do you have someone you like : Uh... Be smart la... TOTALY XD

10.Will visit your ex-teacher in a classmate gathering : This question is a grammatical mistake alltogether ==

11.Most happy to hang out with : Hui Min SARAS AND LEE SA! XD BELIEVE IT OR NOT XDD

12.If two of your friends were having conflicts : Whack both of them and yell "KISS AND MAKE UP OR SHUT UP~!" XDD Yea... I'm straightforward XD

13.Where is preferably the place to go with your lover : I'm... single... T^T

14.What to do in Christmas : take pictures and usually go to Singapore

15.Who do you want to celebrate Christmas with : Anyone who needs a friend to spend christmas with! =D

16.Bad habit on waking up early in the morning : Go back to sleep

17.How many siblings do you have : One (thank GOD XD)

18.Favourite song(Female) : I don't like female singers...

19.Favourite song(Male) : Angel in the night- Basshunter

20.Favourite Colour : BLACK AND RED

21.Flush before using the toilets? : like DUH?

22.Love me not? : I love everyone~! =3

23.Affectionate to guys or girls : I'm a girl... its natural to like guys right? LOL

24.What do you want to shout out loudly : GGGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

25.Do you dare to go toilets alone in the middle of the night? : If i REALLY gotta go and in my "zombie morning" mood Then yea... otherwise... NOH

26.Will you take off your undies in while in the WC : Depends actually

27.Who’s the bastard : ME! :D

28.What’s the current affection : Gym

29.Sleeps uglily : Thats a yes... I think... I dont really look at myself when i'm asleep....

30.Whats the time now : 11.15 (WHO CAME UP WITH THIS TAG??? GO GET LAID LA XD)

31.Do you hate the person who tagged you : Nope, I'm all love XD

32.Weight : F-A-T

33.Weather today : Rain... Sunny Rain... ==

34.Are you pregnant : No... I'm just fat

35.What will you do if you win a lottery : If I havent finished my studies then i'll put it away in the bank. If i have, then i'll donate a quarter, Give half to my parents and spend the rest on friends and myself. seriously.

36.An activity that must be done while in the Uni -life : Literally: study If you mean what i WANT to do, get a lip piercing

【People Tagged】[you may ignore d tag, but please treat me a meal when we meet each other]

1. Hui Min

2. Alan

3. Jessie

4. Saras

5. Yuna

6. Krystle

7. Chloe

8. Angela

9. Jia Jun

10. SIVA XD LOL

01-【Does no.4 know no.6?】： YESH~!

02-【No.10 is a male or?】：Hes a dude for sure ==

03-【 The hobby of no.8】： Ping Pong and BB i think

04-【Does no. 1 have any siblings】：Yea...

05-【The surname of of no.7】：Cheah

06-【Does no.10 have alot of friends?】: I think so?

07-【Anyone tackling no.4?】: Lol! Ask her yourself...

08-【If no.2 is being introduced?】：Eh? If He's being introduced?

09-【The favourite colour of no.6】: I dont know

12-【Where is no.5 studying currently?】：CLS

13-【How do you know no.10?】: Music~! LOL

14-【Whats the difference between the birthmonth of no.1 and you?】：9 Days only la

15-【Ever hang out with no.9?】：Kinda

16-【Do you like to chat with no.2?】: Yea

17-【Like to be with no.3?】：DEFINATELY

18-【How do you think about no.7?】：... LUCKY ARSE!

19-【How do you think about no.9?】：I dont know?

20-【Do you love no.5?】：awh... Yea~

1.Who tagged you with this questionnaire? : Shu Wern and Hooi Ping as far as i know...

2.How long have you known him/her : Hooi Ping I've known for... 10 years... Shu Wern about 4 years

3.Do you think that he/she is important to you? : They definately are! Awesome freinds... Awesome people...

4.Your relationship with him/her : BUDDEH~!

5.Whats his/hers hobby? : Apparently... Reading and hanging out with her girls?

6.What do you think about his/her personality? : They can both be Serious and freaking crazy

7.His/her points of importance in your heart : They listen when I need help

＊1st thing before sleep : Off the lights... stupid...

＊1st thing after awaking from sleep : Go back to sleep

＊Your idol : Currently... I dont have one...

＊Favourite season : Autumn *kicks leaves like a kid*

＊Worked part-time before? : Yea

＊Times worked : A lot

＊Country that wanted to go most : I wanna go to alot of places...

＊Personality hated : Life... at one point

＊Are you a crybaby? : Yea

＊You laugh alot? : OH ABSOLUTELY XD

＊Do you like to go out alone? : Nope... Wait... Sometimes?

＊What time you wake up if it was a holiday? : I dont

＊Today’s weather（Sunny Rainy Cloudy）: Rainy... I'm humoring you...

＊Choose between Friends and Lover : I cant cause my lover would be my best friend and i Love my friends as much as a lover would XD

＊Choose between Chances and Fates : Chances

＊Are you narcissist? : No not really...

＊Is this questionnaire long? : "LONG"... would be an understatement....

＊How to make yourself feel better every time? : Talk and crap till my lips get sore

＊Favourite food : Honestly... Plain whole wheat bread... Just a slice XD

＊Do you like ice? : Nah...

＊Are you full of happiness? : Sometimes i guess... Like after JAM and ATTACK and COMBAT

＊Which are the friends that you cared the most? : Honestly... I care about them equally...

＊Whats the most important item in your bed room? : ... That would be... the bed ==

＊Most consistent dream at sleep : I cant remember...

＊Will you forgive a guy that is mentally disobedient? : Yea... everyone has their flaws i guess =_=

＊Whats the meaning of life? : You live to be happy... and if you cant, then die

＊Do you know？（See if you can answer this！）: No, I dont! (HAH! I can DID!)

＊When do you hate me? : Right about now -_-

＊Like the day you were born or been into the society?: Yea... who wouldnt LOVE to come into a world of negativity? *SARCASM*

＊Like Taoism or Confucianism？ : Confuzed-ism

＊Favourite cake? : I hate cake

＊Can we stop this game now? : Oh... Joy... Nothing would make me happier...

＊Do you like sardins? ^^ : NO... eff the bones...

＊Who knows you the best? : According to Facebook, Alan and Hui Min XD

＊IQ higher or EQ? : Both are essential to get ahead in life...

＊Computer or Mobile Phone : .... I really cant choose... YOU CANT MAKE ME! XDD

＊Prefer to sleep or play? : Play~! It burns calories 8D

＊Friendster or Facebook? : Facebook

＊Whats your wish right now? : To have more than one wish

＊Tired? : A tad

＊Favourite drinks : Water/ Fruit Juice

＊What do you think of the humanity and personality of the person who tagged you? : ... STFU

Ah... The days~

Ah... The good old days... when i would dress up like a complete wannabe and not give a shit... *wipes away tear* Oh the memories...

First came.....

THE VESTS

Then came...

THE VISUAL KEI

And most recently....

THE EMO

Ahhh.... so many memories... And i just noticed... many of them were with hui min... So my dear friend, my weird easily distracted insomniac domo sheep obsessed friend... This post... is dedicated to you! THANKS FOR GOING THROUGH THE "WTF" PHASE WITH ME~!